Jim Kobow blogged about his participation in the Monroe County YMCA’s inaugural Weight Loss Program (Fall 2012). He shared the good, the bad and the ugly of his journey in the program as he lost 40 pounds! Jim is still working toward his overall weightloss goal and his participating in the Weight Loss Program for a second time. Check out our past posts to see Jim’s previous entries. Welcome back, Jim! Thank you for sharing your experiences and insights with us.
You probably noticed no blog last week; well it was a hectic week to put it mildly. My wife had just returned from Triathlon training out in Tucson, Arizona, and was very sick when she got home. Between work and doing my best to make sure she was okay there was not a lot of free time. The week leading up to that was … let’s say different for me. I really come to appreciate Margie when she’s gone. My life changes in many shapes and forms when she is away. I tend to eat healthier when she’s around because she’s sort of the line judge in football making sure that I don’t jump offsides when it comes to food choices. Not that she really ever says anything; it’s more of a mental check by myself knowing that she’s around.
I have been in a real funk … for lack of a better term. My journaling has been nonexistent. Exercise has been a struggle. Food choices have been poor at best. Have you ever been down that road where you are going to start something (diet, exercise, whatever) and you keep telling yourself, “I’ll start fresh tomorrow,” but then tomorrow never seems to come? That’s been me trying to get back into my weight loss and exercise groove. I will start the day out with either a healthy breakfast choice or a good lunch, only to crash and burn either late afternoon with a terrible snack or dinner. Then end with no exercise. Webster defines plateau as: a relatively stable level, period, or condition: a level of attainment or achievement, this probably best describes my current status. I need to find that focus and drive that I had 14 months ago.
This has only been made worse by missing the last two weeks of weight loss class. The first was work related and unavoidable. The second was last week because I had tickets to the Ohio State game and needed the time to get everybody picked up to arrive at the game on time. I could have easily forgone this game, but it was senior night and I really wanted to be there for Jordan Hulls last game. It’s easy to let go when there’s no accountability. Webster defines accountability as: the quality or state of being accountable; especially: an obligation or willingness to accept responsibility or to account for one’s actions. I can admit that I have lacked accountability lately. How do you get that drive, desire, or fire back to finish what you set out to accomplish? There’s only one way; you simply have to put your nose to the grindstone and put one foot in front of the other and continue to move forward. You have to ask yourself how bad you want it. Moving forward I restructured my plan.
My first move was that I enrolled in Boot Camp which meets Monday, Wednesday, and Friday mornings at 6:00am. Anybody who knows me should know I’m not a morning person. If I can manage to make it to these classes I know I will be successful. The first week, after Wednesday’s class, I was pretty sure that I would never be able to sit down again without pain (Thanks, Denae), as we had done so many lunges that my glutes were screaming. Boot Camp was my first step in getting refocused. The next step is to get the eating under control. That will require journaling to make sure that I’m being completely honest with myself. I know that I can do this. It just requires a commitment that I’m more than willing to make. The final step is to make sure that I’m making good food choices and not cheating myself by ignoring items that I eat that are not healthy.
This week in class we talked about healthy versus unhealthy cues, whether they are food or activity related and it really hit home with me. The premise being that there are things in everyone’s environment that act as cues to eat healthy or unhealthy and to be active or inactive. I think everybody in the class agreed that the weather is a cue for both eating and activity. I know that lately I’ve let workplace negative cues affect me adversely. We have guys bring in donuts on Saturday and I’d like to say that I avoided them but I’d be lying to not only you but myself. The same day we had a customer bring in pizza from DeAngelo’s and I have to say it was delicious, for a few moments, but then I found myself feeling really guilty about eating it.
I hope that this week’s blog doesn’t come off as too negative. These are simply the battles I have faced lately with my weight loss struggle. I know that I’ve got two classes left to right the ship and I am determined to do so. I’m doing better already. As I write this, I’m enjoying a delicious Fuji apple rather than a piece of candy, and the weather man is calling for better weather so it will be easier to get outside and get moving.
See you next week.